It is funny when I found out Never Shout Never – one-man band on Youtube. You know, Youtube is amazing, truly honestly when searching for something, it turns out several, tons of amazing stuffs ahead, and even dark sides.
focus. I mean, several songs of this band, it is, like a piece of my life now, some songs, cheatercheatercheatereater blabla quite a funny song, “khinh bỉ”, yeah a part of my 2017, I am like that song. I felt I was learnt something useful that I will not turn back anytime. Got a lesson, experience, quite sad, but it is true. whatever.
love is nothing now, i mean man woman, blbla is shits. but love between friends, family, good, great, keeping on that. others, rubbish lol
“girl, you better love what you got, ”
it is funny. i said “funny” several times in 2017. i think it could be a word for 2017. 12 months in Suisse, and nearly a month of 2016. I did not event reflect my 2016, hah! what a shame. It is the reasons I havent learnt from myself. i forgot a lot of things, girl!
i dont mean, i am vulnerable, i was, i will be, any moments. i cannot become this person now if i did not meet wonderful people, wonderful places, wonderful school (yeah wonderful to be learnt), i feel respectful, i feel i owe them a lots in my whole life.
who knows, what 2018 will come, i dont know, but i can know, when i plan, i have to do that, finish that. it is not about searching interesting things on the internet and you forgot your work. i bet 2018 you have to a self-control person, absolutely. luck comes with hardwork, not for lazy person wishing something lucky. it will not appear, i bet.
whatever it comes, i bet i make plans, make tons of plans, reading, going out, making new friends, travelling, singing, playing, videoing and photoing, all of my hobbies, keeping it up. publicizing sometimes, be confident.
i think about self-confidence, i see, a lots people around me, friends, are confident, what about me. i dont, i am not yet, but i can be soon, what i have, what i own, what are my values.
hah, suddenly i remember a thing, “fake it until you become it”, a word for 2018, trying new things and learn learn to become it. i dont. i am sure of anything. some parts of my life depends on luck. who knows, but it is a something of my strength, but i cannot depend on it, i have my strength, own values, i have to strengthen my core values, not luck. anyone admires me, yeah some, with the respect of seeing me grown up, be patient, be calm, be vulnerable, be strong, be happy with smiles, laughs, even the troubles come, the bad things happened. what it comes, it comes, anything can come. oh i can meet my love tomorrow, who knows. or i can be kidnapped to go another country and i get out of it. who knows, become what i want.
remember, feelings are important, i can feel my consiousness is strong, i can feel it, so if i feel it, do it, dont make nonsense when knowing it but not doing anything. it is gonna be silly and rubbish. you are. learn new things, absolutely reading, finishing some books already, but finishing more and more.
wishing the raining is not washing anything, please snowing a litle, anything, whatever, so i counts on it, new habits, drinking tea, eating less, fruits are important, music is important, singing and playing is important, anything can be important, make me happy and be healthy.
miss some kids, their voices, happy voices, it is dark here, so what, i dont care, i listen to my song, typing anything i can, expressing my thoughts, eating my appple, whatever, i have to focus on my assignment, ahahahah yeah focus on my ass!