just a reminder

when i suddenly received a missed call yesterday early morning, i had a thought, qhether it was a company i applied few days ago,

and then i realized, i think first, if i dont apply anything, i will get nothing,

if i decide to apply everything i like, i will get something,

the more posts i press, the more chances i have,

that’s right?

so, i think about some projects i like, 

all of them need a personal statement/motivation letter, a stricky one,

i am not good at writing that, but who knows, i have to be a master of it, after writing hundreds, surely,

and now, i havent become yet, what waiting me for the next day, a collection of how to write a motivation letter,


a confusion

i have a lot of things on my mind, i cannt event figure out what comes first,

i think about this one, and another one coming out,

it is like my brain doesnt have a structure, a plan, or a priority of the list,

that’s why i am here, writing all down,

listing coke and pepsi with its brand image, commercials, music, models, communication,

or some ´i dont give a fuck’ shits happen from some people i dont even get used to and they blamed for my thing, meh,

even i think about going somewhere else,

a lots and lots of things to do, to plan, to change,

i dont need to do anything,

but everything,

writing a reportage and i havent had any idea which topic to write and research,

hmnn hopefully but desperately i have to, have to face and finish all of them,

My happiness

I told ya. My super cool friends are super awesome indeed!

When I had my birthday, I remember her. She wished a lots for me via Viber but I havent known until she messed to me via Fb. 

So emotional when reading her messages and her creative design with a cute girl in a twinkle hair.

I felt like we missed together as the day we meet together and talk and sleep together. We are best friends, indeed!

I remember those days we hang out randomly on the streets in Hanoi. Wandering around and nowhere is the destination.

I still remember the day I hadnt prepared fir the meeting and we lost. Truly lost. It’s my fault but we had another adventure for another journey.

As now, we are living in different country, as last year, different country, but our heart can feel from others haha =))) 

Another cute friend with a 4-5-year photo sending me and we feel we are young. Birthday is for smiling!!!

My cool mate is gonna prepare for his new job. I told him that I was emotional few days now, he thought it could be for my physical problems =)) how dare him, I feel because it is from my heart. And then when he went to sleep, he said to me: Dont cry, be happy then, girl. Haha, what a cute friend of mine when we are friends in more than 4 years telling anything we can share without any barriers. 

Could a relationship be a friendship like that? I dont know for sure. It should be open without any secret, as obedience to God.

That is why I am barely, dont want to stick to any relationship. I feel scared to belong to anything I dont want.

Yeah maybe I am good at living alone with myself.

Cake, candle, a song, cool friends, do you miss anything?

I am gonna miss him

I feel really bad when someone left me after few days of fun and excitement.

He came and left after one week we met. It hurts, man!

I dont know much about him, even that, my feelings to him is definitely great. Feeling peaceful and fun.

I met him by chance and then I met his friends. They are kind, welcomed and honestly they are adorable. They are in the church, I can come to the church to learn something useful and meaningful.

I feel like I am losing a friend right now. He only left the country I am living now, he comes back to his home. Yeah two countries dont have a long distance like my home, but we cannt meet easily like coming to the church anymore! 

It hurts because we havent had one more chance to play together. Just one and only one from now then.

I dont know for sure what will be going in the future, but I hope we can keep in touch and let the future count. 

I am gonna miss him as a great friend with his super cool friends. Luckily when I know him in the present, it must be something I can learn from, or it is the calling of God, nah.

I feel we have a connection, with the instrument. 

He is calm, funny and peaceful.

I am gonna miss his smile, his voice and his sayings.

We did a little time together with his friends but it was a great great time I have ever had in this city..

Oh my god, can you please take care and we can meet again one day somehow?

I feel sad, deeply.

I cannt imagine it comes so soon!

My very first friend came to me and then left me.

I am so sorry, hon, it is your birthday if new age but I cried a lots before your happiness.

Yeah it’s fine, fair enough to bless something and wish for the best things.

I gave him a film that I took in Bel air. He knew the place, he is gonna miss this place nearby when we first met.

I wish I could hug him as I desired, but the church prohibited with its rule.

I wish we could have more time to play and sing with several partners.

Maybe I understand when he came to me and then he knew he is gonna leave soon.

Shake hands! Please be a wonderful and great man as now and more! I will keep you safe as a cool man with a big smile, peaceful face, sometimes funny with everything, naive too!

Miss you badly!

Heart to heart

I feel I have a few friends but they are truly deely good and nice and best friends in my current life.

I feel sometimes I am so sad, like I have no friends to talk. But actually they are there, they are here, available for me. One thing I have to do is to start a chit chat.

Writing about chit chat, I miss my dear professor, haha. A stupid thing.

I prefer to leave him alone.

I feel when I listen to a specific kind of music, I usually choose one or two types, such as Kesha or James Blunt now. I cannt choose others and absord another kind of songs. I dont know, maybe I prefer something, an act of loyalty ?!

I think I should do something unpredictably. Now I dont remember much about the past. I gained some weights but it is stable. I had enough several things I can use.

I realize if I am enough and keeping stable as it happens now. What will happen with stability? Nah, I cannt do that. How can I improve my challenges and those unexpected events in the future? Thinking sonething is not enough, action has to be happened. Oh shit, people hate people. Money has to be spent and I just know James Blunt will visit the place I live in Nov.

I am hoping something good will happen but I have to be good first.

Cant touch it

I cannt keep listening the old songs. I feel what if i spend my time hearing those melodies, I can feel creepy, disturbing and crying. Hope noone nothing can see it.

I dont think it is neccesary to tell anyone my plan, my direction is straight and directing to what I pursue. I prefer to be silent.

Some people will say I am so quiet, but what the hell the think, I am me.

As a scene in Bridges of Spies, Abel and Gary truly honestly were to their government, if others think differently, their choices are different, not the honesty of Abel and Gary. Even the worry about that, does it help?

I am surely worrying does not help at all. Mr. Donovan is so excellent and he could protect his country, his people and even the spy.

I feel some boredom now. It is like I have a lot of friends but scolling down to the list, I found noone. Different areas and different time zones. I must be chosen to be do my favorite things.

The Logi gets stuck. I dont know why. Maybe I did a mistake when choosing ´´forget this devicé’´. ha! What a silly me on July!

Almost of everything fell down and I couldnt control at all.

August, please be nice to me. I promise you I will eat healthy and spend my time studying!!!!

Never ever happened before

This afternoon I have to be back in Geneve to get my student card. It seems like marathon before 5.

I got a direct train from Renens to Geneve in 2h57 but I missed because of buying a ticket.

And then catching another train, luckily to Lausanne and via Lausanne to Geneve (must be faster wïth less stops).

Normally, the checker checks the tickets only for fast and direct trains. Today is an unlucky day for me. I had two checks on the trains for the ticket, one from Lausanne to Geneve and return.

Luckily, I bought all the tickets.

When I arrived Gare Cornavin, I ran quickly to get a tram to my house. Luckily, it is before 5. The building was here. As quick as possible I opened the door, and oops it was broken! The key was divided into two parts and I did not have any idea about that!!!!

I called my sister and then she called the person who could take the key out of the door.

After nearly one hour, a guy came. He speaks English for sure. He took one minute and a half and get the key out. He got 150 frcs. How easy to get an expensive price like that!!!

He was nice but the money does not nice as him.

Troubles come around so high and I should not go out today.

Luckily, I bought the ticket to Annecy and finished my day with chicken and salad at home.

Hoefully, the money goes, the luckiness comes and wish my mom will be okay.